In this episode Nicolas ponders technology. Why do we have it? What are the resultant societal implications? Nicolas also ponders taking a trip to Seattle to visit the ghost of their adulthood.
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Surplus Thought
Accepting A Grim Reality
Embracing The Moment But Thinking About The Future
Nicolas’ participation in a reading group leads them to start thinking about ways to plant seeds of thought and action in light of the current reality.
Don’t Underestimate Evil
Living On Borrowed Time
A Fragile Net
Sleep has been more prevalent in my life lately. Sleeping is one of my last resort coping skills. I’ve reached a stage of true micro functionality. My energy is fading.
When I do set upon an activity it is very short lived. Starting a flight only to hit pause or starting to write only to let it collect dust on drive.
I have things I need to be doing.
Being ever cognizant of the fragility of my safety net, I now foresee the eminent failure of the safety net. This possible reality is sobbing and should spring me into quick and decisive action. But, when cornered and out of options I become paralyzed.
Support and validation is proving hard to come by. My thoughts are growing darker and darker.
So many don’t see the stark realities and dismiss my thinking. When will they wake up? More importantly for me, how much can I safely share?
The most practical questions I am asking myself: What conditions are worth enduring? What constitutes a “deal breaker”? When do you make a call?
The Turbine In The Sky Keeps on Turning: 5,000 Hours Plus Thousands More
There is an eerie quiet in the apartment this evening. A noticeable lack of the sounds of a virtual jet off to a far off place. Unlike many, I always keep my sound on when simming. I landed an A321 in Sacramento a few hours ago. Although I could have flown back east again, I decided to call it quits for a while to let myself rest, pause and reflect.
Despite heading to bed and falling into a light sleep while listening to Skyfaring, I now find myself wide awake once more. Thinking and finding that I need to distract myself with something.
Under quarantine flight sim has become my life. Even more so than usual. I started my day, if you could call it that, with the 777 and a morning departure out of Johannesburg bound for JFK. Even with Orbx Global, the virtual African landscape isn’t much to look at. Wish I had the new openlc. The virtual Atlantic, of course, is a little better. I was going to cross The Atlantic and make my way home a day ago. On approach to Lisbon, though, I had glanced out at The Atlantic and thought, “No, Not Today.” So, I took a long detour through Johannesburg. Oh the things we do to ourselves.
I took some liberties with realism and lumped the two crew rest periods together. With auto cruise on I was able to sleep for a good portion of the rest period. When Alexia’s chime sounded I muttered snooze a few times. More liberties with reality. Despite the long leg and poor sleep the touch down on rwy 22l in JFK was smooth and I made a controlled exit at my intended highspeed. And, with that my 5,000 hour on projectFly was logged.
But, time zones being what they are, 6pm on The Eastcoast is 3pm for in my real world west coast location. Too early for real sleep. Thus, after a few short hours napping and scrolling the ever traumatic land of social media I found myself in the 321 trying and failing to avoid the worst of the weather west of JFK.
So, I hit the 5k mark and just kept flying. And, so long as I can, I’ll just keep flying. In these times it’s just about all I can do.
Paranoia Turns Into Justified Fear In Theses Times
Chasing The Numbers is not why I Podcast
In this episode Nicolas attempts to process the latest events in their life under continued quarantine. A piece of writing Nicolas is working on along with their finances and the imminent release of Microsoft Flight Simulator (2020) has given Nicolas pause. Could this be an opportunity to hang up the headset? Sadly, at this level of addiction, Nicolas suspects not. But, with their continued fs addiction in mind Nicolas is at least thinking critically about their addictive behavior. Other topics include getting along with people, reflecting on the past and trying not to dwell on podcast download statistics.
