In this episode Nicnac works to shift their energy and considers what it will take cautiously to spend more time outside of their darkened studio where they’ve spent most of their time since Covid started in March of 2020. They are in the process of accepting the neurodivergent capacity limits they have that cause them to need to work hard to be mindful of their limits when outside of their safe space and interacting with others
In this episode Nicolas returns to the classic production style and muses on issues in their personal life and their system design skills which they have recently been trying to apply to personal life harm reduction.
Nicolas starts out Season 15 of The Nicnacjak Podcast noting the early physical symptoms of middle age despite being over 2 and a half years from the theoretical mid life point and trying to get their head around the concept. Nicolas notes their recent efforts at life improvement and a perceived lack of progress but reports being reasonably prepared for this phase of life given their current circumstances. They outline their hopes and ambitions for the “other side of the hill” noting the difficulty in trying to attain financial independence, romance, friendships and having enough needs met to comfortably engage in projects of passion designed to leave a legacy.
In this episode Nicolas struggles with their own sense of integrity and their recent lapses as well as the lapses in integrity of other organizations and people around them. Nicolas really struggles with trying to find an honest path towards harm reduction.
In this episode Nicolas discusses trying to triage meeting the current demands of their life loosely informed by their understanding of Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs and The Wellness Recovery Action Plan. The former has proven to be more helpful as Nicolas works though their survival needs in hopes of being able to spend more time on meeting esteem needs.
Finding themselves in a particularly rough state after months of quarantine due to Covid 19 and more recently near complete self imposed isolation, Nicolas shares some raw thoughts, feelings and fears.
In this episode Nicolas ponder whether new ideas are possible. And, if they are why they search for new ideas by looking at old ideas. They also ponder their mental cycles and wonder if there isn’t some way to embrace them rather than fight them or try to fix them.
In this episode Nicolas realizes that their pursuit of knowledge and truth went too far and may in fact have been a manic episode/high energy state. They talk about the steps they are taking to rectify the situation and use their support system.